Conspiracy

Last week, a friend told me that she has taken her 10 year old daughter out from a renowned Chinese primary school and placed her in a private school instead, after her daughter being diagnosed of depression recently. I truly salute her courage to make the change. As parents, we often want to give our children the best we could. But are we truly giving them the best we could? Do we really have the courage to listen to our heart and are we brave enough to make changes that our heart tells us to? In theory, we know that every child is unique and special. However, in practice, do we really dare to raise our children in ways different from the other parents?

We often feel trapped by the situations. We often feel that we are the victims. However, other than whining and complaining, are we doing something? Are we the change we want to see? Or are we just part of the conspiracy?



 

Revived ...

Decided to revive my almost dead garden after seeing Sheryl’s blog this morning. Kia-soo...…. Haha…Laughing

Been having very bad flu for the past 2 days. Hope not H1N1. Like every other ordinary being, I am “not ready to die yet”. Knowing that I am down with flu, Da Ge advised me this morning that it’s okay if I die tomorrow, just make sure that I finish off my outstanding work with him, or at least properly brief Lin Lin about my work. How nice of him!!

Only when I am sick, that I remember that 生命就在呼吸间。。。that人要及时发挥良能。。。。



 

Happy New Year

Time flies. Just realised that my last entry was made in last year. Haha… certainly this is not an interesting blog. No writer, no commentator, no audience….



 

iPhone 3G Challenges

gWas in a trendy mode and Got myself an iphone a week ago. Hehe…. I then realised that I have created my own nightmare. Well… the phone is cool, and I really love it… but was faced with many challenges. At first, the phone sim lock couldn’t be released. Then, its clock didnt work. After overcoming these issues, the phone sometimes detected no maxis line. And worst of all, the sms couldn’t work properly. So for all of you who sent me sms over the past few days, I am sorry for no reply because I couldn’t retrieve the messages.

So, this morning, with a “thick face”, I went back to my very nice supplier and requested a return of the phone as I noticed that this very nice phone has brought me more stress than enjoyment. To continue bearing with it would be a compromise to myself. And guess what? They allowed me to do it. So here I am, in the phone shop, waiting to restore and delete all data from the phone. I have to say that I am really grateful to this supplier.

Of course, I trust that all these are merely the sim-unlocking problems and are “solveable” problems with software updates. But I am just too tired of them.

But I am not giving up on iphone yet….



 

We are Back!

The trip to Myanmar was a very different kind of “holiday”. Physically tiring. But mentally afreshing & spiritually inspiring. Discovered more of myself, and is more certain of my path.

Getting back to work. Will write more later.



 

Good “discipline”……

After many years of trying to introduce some discipline into my own life, I think I have finally succeeded…. Hehe…. Gone are the good old days when I stayed up throughout the night.  My eyelids have become the best sleeping alarm clock for me. They start to get heavy past 9 o’clock everyday. And I am now typing with 80% of my eyes closed. Hm…. On second thoughts, is this “discipline” or is this a sign of aging? Haha….

Anyway, I am going to sleep now. Good night!



 

Empty Promises

Ying shared with me this afternoon that there have been a lot of things that I said I wanted to do but have NOT DONE YET… From her list, I even noticed items which I can’t even remember having said at all. Hehehe…. seems that I may have the habit of making empty promises in my life. Or rather, to put it more nicely, I have a lot of visions, dreams, should-dos, can-dos, but usually do not materialise them. Visions remain visions, dreams remain dreams…. perhaps it’s time for some REAL ACTIONS.

So, 1st thing to do, is to pack up my bag and GO HOME NOW. Haha….



 

Adjustment

Time flies. Without realising, it has been 6 days since I last posted. So, perhaps internet is not such an essential part of my life afterall. Ying didn’t go to school this morning. At first, I was really ANGRY at her attitude of being reluctant to go to school. But as I cooled down, I subsided to the feeling that something must be troubling her to make her so reluctant to go to school. Apparently, she was very disturbed by teachers’ comments of “You are a USELESS child” and beating “for no reason” (in her eyes). Now she seems to have walked out from it (well, for the time being) and found her strength to face school again. But that really puts me into thoughts…. I think at many times, I am often too busy with my own stuff that I neglect her feelings in “normal” days. I seldom really spend “some” time with her everyday, checking on her “well-being”. It’s only until such garbage has accumlated to an “unbearable extent” that I do some spring cleaning (because things have happened to force me to face it). My visit to Soop Foon’s house yesterday evening also reminded me about this. When I visited her, Soop Foon was ”doing nothing” (literally) but looking at her children playing in the house compound. I suddenly realised that it had been a long long time since I last did that. Hm… it looks like a little adjustment to my life is needed…..



 

Justice To Myself

Attended a Commercial Contracts seminar by Judith Sihombing today. Suddenly realised that I had stopped learning actively in my profession ages ago. Over the past years, I have spent considerable effort on personal growth, but totally overlooked this aspect of myself! I always thought that I don’t have real keen interest in law, and that being a lawyer is just my profession. However, in the seminar, I discovered the long forgotten feeling about learning law. Realised that I do have passion and interest in law afterall, contrary to what I always thought! Haha…. so I have decided to do some justice to myself– will make an effort to expand this part of me too in the days to come. Best wishes to me…. and to my clients and potential clients…. A good lawyer is being born………..Laughing



 

I am born! Thank you, Ching Yen…

Yes! My blog is finally up! Sincerest appreciation to Ching Yen for “playing with me” tonight, to help me set this blog up. It reminded me of the times when sisters “play together”. I am not sure whether it’s a good idea for me to start blogging and whether it will take up too much of my “valuable” time, but I feel that I need to learn about this too as it has become such an essential part of today’s life.

I truly hope that this Bodhi Garden will be a meeting place for our souls.

Cheers! Let’s keep in touch!